To Papa Turning

ok [breaths deep].....


i grew up with less of my papa. just had a handful of memories with him: he taking me to school and saving me from mama's raging beatings!

most of the time i wake up and sleep, not seeing him. work, i suppose, took most of his time. i remembered him drunk at night (maybe, i got his alcohol genes hehe), but! i know he was a good father and provider. WE ALL FINISHED SCHOOL WITH GOOD VALUES (palag ang magsabi na di ako mabait hahaha) AND WE ALL 3 SIBLINGS HAVE WORK.

and ye, he gave me lots of dogs (some were cooked, damn) and bought me a lot of toys (swear, 2 big boxes lahat)

papa never taught us but showed us how to live life. to be humble, to be generous, not to hate people, to think, to study, to fear God, to pray, to be resourceful, to be political and critical, not to be materialistic, to love even your enemies and most hated people and to be humble

father-son talks were too few. one was when he asked me of what i did wrong, instead of beating me (here, i promised not to beat my child!).

if father-son talks were too few, his words of wisdom were less than 5. one that stuck was: WHY SAVE, SPEND! God will provide. you cant bring wealth with you in your deathbed anyways.

yes! he and mama (of course) showed us these values and i thank them for bringing us good.

happy father's day, pa...and ma (i hope, mother's day na rin so i could write for mama)


i love you both :)


your spoiled youngest only son,
DONDON

Happy Birthday Fran and Mae

To our lovely daughters, Fran and Mae, happy birthday

Our memories with you and the whole la familia will forever stay. you are indeed the symbols of happiness. and greta and i wish you more birthdays so you could share more happiness in this world.

so, keep smiling and enjoy life :)

happy birthday mga anak and i miss you both

Me, My Ruthless Mind and Weak Heart

YE!! I AM HOLDEN CAULFIELD, I AM GOING TO BE LIKE MARK CHAPMAN WHO KILLED JOHN LENNON.

i killed everyone in my thoughts. i mistrusted everyone even my love ones. i doubted everybody. i am happy for losers and people who fail [schadenfreude!] and really really sad for who succeed. i am more than a masochist. masochists are chickens. they really are funny to me.

i am holden caulfield and i stalked people. i am good at this. so, you should be scared! i am pervert. i wanted to peep on my girl roommates. i i wish to f**k, even my girl-friends. now, you should really be scared. i curse a lot too.

oh i plan to hit someone...i mean two people or better yet four or them! id scare the hell out of them. i dont care if theyd revenge. i am dead anyway.

i am ruthless. i am holden. i trick people because i love mind games. i lie a lot! i am a big pathological liar. lying never gets off me. and this is ALL TRUE!

i am ruthless....i am caulfield.....


.....i lie.


because my heart is too weak to be the real holden caulfield. so call me pyk and i love people.

That Is Why I Am Holden Caulfield

my hunches, guts and heart had often been right. they may have troubled me awhile but they gave me longer gains. my rationality and mind are not entirely disposable. they clearly identify problems, balance and warn me off from biases that the guts and heart are holding. it is my heart that often decides most of my life. though i am right thumb-over-left when i clinched my 2 hands together (meaning: i am more rationale or left-brainer than intuitive or right-brainer), i am definitely strong at heart. forbid my ruthless overcriticism and overanalysis, but they are just balancing thoughts and not at all decisions and actions.

this is why i am HOLDEN CAULFIED: mean by thought, kind by deed

Happy Birthday, Juan

fat, fun, frank, farmer, family man, friend and all the Fs including being a kick-ass fucker and closet faggot (hahaha). these all describe Juan. a very good FRIEND!

i never imagine he could be one of my best friends-someone worth telling to people. to most people, he could be annoying, but he never was to me. maybe, fun was different to them. but id tell you, you would have real fun with this fucker. and ye, he is a good feeder. he cooks great! he farms too and most important he is frank, honest and straightforward. o maybe, this is why most people are annoyed at him.

FUCK THEM! hahahaha

juan is not only all fat, but all heart. he has a heart for his and Rica's family, friends, God and the needy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUAN! love you pero mas love ko si L..... hahahahahaha FAGGOT ARIAN!

Economists. Duh!

Ask any hardcore economists where they have faith in. A quick answer will be, "the market force".

Ask them if they have faith in God, it would not surprise you to find one atheist.

Odd! but isn't market force like God? inconceivable? just behind the clouds? beyond our control?

Hmmmm...Adam Smith, one of the fathers of economics, could have been referring to God when he said about the "invisible hand" as the driving force of the market.

well, i think we should re-think our inconsistencies then. why cant we believe on God if we could believe on market forces and superstitions?

Introducing..Mrs. Michael Patrick Sibbaluca

i am supposed to sweep Greta away from her feet but our free time just do not match and is not enough for what i have in my wicked mind :)

so i temporarily settled for a shocking weekend proposal, but Greta is just one of those crudely impatients and i am one of those who easily gives in.

the result: a dull engagement without marriage proposal!

but it wasnt dull at all because it did surprise Greta. she never thought of the engagement ring i gave.

the ring though clearly meant Greta will be the future Mrs. Michael Patrick Sibbaluca, the proposal was still incomplete and so does the engagement surprises.

more surprises and i swear that time, i would not give in to Greta's impatience anymore and hectic schedule.

to all: cheers to Mrs. Michael Patrick Sibbaluca